“The Philosophy of Life”

Life as we know it is a never ending cycle of various experiences. It is unpredictable yet exciting, mysterious yet fulfilling. Throughout life we learn several lessons through experiences. We are after all human beings, a being prone to commit mistakes. No one is perfect, as every people have flaws in terms of their physical and mental capacity. We all require something in order to fully achieve our goals in life. We needed the guidance of our parents in our early years in this world, the knowledge of teachers to teach us about the world and the company of friends to help us prevail in the difficult world we are living. Throughout our lifespan, numerous obstacles hinder our progress. These obstacles are felt in the form of problems and multiple adversaries. Most of us would think that these factors are sent to keep us down. But looking at the bigger picture, problems and adversaries are ironically a blessing in disguise. It is in these things that we come to understand who we really are. Without these, we won’t be able to realize our flaws and mistakes. Mistakes teach us how to act correctly in the near future and flaws give us awareness of our limitations as being ourselves. Self-understanding makes everyone a better individual. But the understanding of the self would never make one’s life perfect, it takes more than that to fulfill one’s definition of life. Life also demands motivation and determination in order for it to achieve a near perfect status. It may seem as an impossible task to fulfill, but as aforementioned life is not as simple as it may sound. It would take us years of experience to fully mention that life is indeed felt, years of hardwork, dedication and hardships to fully define one’s life. So what really is life? In order to answer its true meaning, why not try to live casually everyday? Events both expected and unexpected unfolds everyday and it is in these events that we begin to understand how it is to live. Every life is different from the other; every person is different and so is every experience. Nevertheless let us still not forget that no matter what kind of life we run, good or bad we should still be grateful to have been privilege to have been given a “life”. It is an overlooked privilege each and everyone of us take for granted. Imagine if the thing called “life” never existed. What would become of the universe? Life is indeed a great gift that should be embraced by everyone no matter what. So live your life in your own way and never regret each passing experiences that may come to it.

"Man"

Man is a great creation,
Bestowed with the gift of a great mind,
Given privilege of being God's likeness,
He has walked the Earth,
Dominant among others,
Throughout the years he had carried this fate,
But these gifts carries a curse,
The curse of "free-will",
For a long time,
Man's decisions turned outrageous,
Paving way to his greed,
His greeds thus turned into anger,
And anger ultimately leads to destruction,
It is man's common habit,
To kill each other for their own self-benefits,
Their lust for things eventually corrupted the world,
But it was nature that ultimately paid the price,
Devastated by man's actions,
When will man ever learn,
To wisely use his gifts?
Perhaps only God may truly know,
The purpose of man's presence,
He is fantastic yet destructive,

-Alvin Reyes

"My Favorite song...'Changes in my Life'"

I was not so happy being lonely
Living without you
So I prayed so hard for your love
In my heart I needed you
Then I looked up in the sky
And I'm thinking why oh why
These are all the many changes in my life

After all the caring and the laughter
No one else like you
I am not a preacher with a sermon
I'm so in love with you
'Cause to live without your love
Like the sun that shines above
Is the magic of the changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes in my life

Listen to these words I want to give you
On our love so true
Don't forget I love you and I need you
I'll always be with you
So just look up in the sky
And you'll find out why oh why
These are all the many changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes, these are all the many changes,
These are all the many changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I

These are all the may changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I,
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain
Falling from the sky
You and I

These are all the many changes, these are all the many changes,
These are all the many changes in my life (3x)

-This song reminds me of many different things. Changes may occur in one person's life in many ways...but usually a certain person is all what it takes to do this. Indeed love can change one person into something more than he or she is usually capable of...

"What could've been..."

Regrets in life cannot be avoided. As we progress more into life, we always find ourselves amidst choosing different and crucial decisions. These choices may present different outcomes and implications later on, but the fact is that we must choose one among them at the present.

My life is filled with confusions. Often time I find myself taking the wrong path. Usually I choose to believe what my emotions yearned for, never paying much attention to things that should rightfully be chosen. In the end, I find myself full of regrets. Regular people may not understand me; some would even consider me as oversensitive or so. But before judging me, first listen to my story…

I was born with a very gifted lifestyle. I have an average family. Though we may not be the big and rich type, we are happy living together. Things in life are always unpredictable; several unexpected things may occur later on. As with any stranger out there, my life also took on an unexpected and different path. We moved from place to place, and also experienced the feeling of anxiety and hardships. Luck was always by our side as we somehow manage to overcome all of it. But of course, things would always go differently again later on.

 

Our most recent place may perhaps be our best. We’ve been through a very large city and even the peaceful countryside. This time, we reside in a place where it is in between; not too silent and not too crowded. I felt love in this new place. It was the place that changes me. Maturity was not my strongest point, yet somehow I’ve learned to achieve it in this place.

I was someone who never cared for what’s happening around me. Happy-go-lucky, shy and shut-in in my house almost all day. I’ve never made too many friends and was perhaps innocent about reality. As a result, I’ve created my own fantasy world in my mind. A world so perfect and always in my favor. My own world became my sanctuary for running from reality. But soon I discovered how different the truth is.

For me, everything was like a movie. Fail once but soon fate would unveil success. Decisions made are always right as long as that’s what your heart desire. But I was dumbfounded by this fact; the world is not a scripted play that always ensures a scripted ending.

It is my emotion that always gets the best of me. Every time I am placed in a situation where I have to decide, I always play my “Movie-like” mentality. I always tend to choose like a lead actor does in any movie; something epic and something that would probably lead to an extravagant ending. Boy, how wrong I was.

I fell in love with a girl with such amazing traits. I just thought that if I play the good part I would get the good love-story ending, but instead it backfired miserably. But I never gave up hope of one day gaining the attention of the girl I love. I did every way possible to get to her, but again life is not a movie. My bitter fate in love affected my life up until the present. She was indeed the one whom I consider my first true love even though she never looks at me at the same light.

I always thought that after that my love-life would never ever be good again. But fate ensured that someone else would take place after my failure from her. Another girl arrived to save me from my dilemma. She was a woman with great qualities; no man could ever resist the unique quality she possessed. But this salvation came too soon as I was never ready to move on at the moment. Never did she give up hope on me, but I threw her away because of my still dominant feeling for the last. For the first time, I broke somebody else’s heart because of my own selfish desire. As of now, she left for someplace far away without saying a word to me.

Perhaps the biggest mistake I made was sacrificing my very future for the very first girl I love. My educational career was already going well but yet I gave that all up just for the sake of being with her at the same school. One could probably say that I chased what my heart yearned for, and yet another failure. When I moved from my current school at that time to another, it seems that she found someone else there. I tried to smile, trying to be happy that finally someone else had finally been there to make her happy, but for some reason I was so depressed inside. Finally, I’ve decided to move out of her presence. For a long time, I distanced myself from seeing her. I should be happy for her sake.

Just when I was about to be happy on my own again, she was there. She appeared before me carrying a burden that guy gave to her. For some reason, she was sad for something that happened between them. In my own mind I just thought that I should not care anymore. She broke my heart several times now, but why did I still care? Why did I still comfort her after all that happened? I guess I’ll really never know the real answer but I did.

As of now we have a good relationship as friends. I may have never been good enough to be her special someone, but at least we’re good friends. I always feel so special being with her, but somehow I am still sad. Sad by the fact that we’re just gonna be only friends after all. I wanted to tell her how much I love her and what I really feel about her. But I am afraid that again it may end in yet another big failure. I still don’t know why, but somehow I still get the feeling that one day she’ll find another one. And that another one would never ever be me.

After all these, I just find myself asking what could’ve been the outcome if I chose the different path? What if I’ve never met her? What if I’ve never left the one that truly loved me? What if I never followed her in the same school? Things could’ve been different for the both of us. I may never have to feel so insecure with myself right now. And I know she would’ve been released from the burden she is carrying right now which would be me. I know these may be selfish and undesirable thoughts but what if? I love her so much but I know she’ll never love me back like this. Somehow I just feel so sorry for myself anymore, desperately clinging to the thought of her finally acknowledging me. Several questions of what could’ve been still lingers my mind. But for now it’s probably for the best that I don’t question these anymore. I’ll just go on with my life the ways things are already are. And when the day finally comes for me or her to finally finds the one, just be happy about it. It may hurt, but that’s life, just try to think that things happen for a reason. I know the rightful aftermath would soon unfold. For now the important thing is I love her and it doesn’t matter what happened before anymore. Regrets are never going to make a person better after all…

-Alvin Reyes

"Flowers and Friendship"

Friendship is like a blooming flower. A flower begins as something unlikely, something unfamiliar. It takes a few amounts of time and certain care before it develops into something beautiful. After such outcome is shown, we can now appreciate how distinctive it is from the others. Each fully-bloomed flower tells a story. It is the story of the development it undergone before achieving such heights. Flowers also require the right amount of care and attention in order for its beauty to last. Friendship also begins as something unlikely and unfamiliar. We may find it quite awkward to approach a stranger at first. But given a certain amounts of time and understanding develops it into something quite extraordinary. Only when we attain that level of fondness do we regard a person as someone special. Of course, each friend is unlike the others. Every people have a different story. Their individual stories are greatly shaped by their personal experiences. The beauty of friendship can last if proper care and commitment is provided.

"The Rain I Loved"

Rainy days may seem depressing,

But in my case I find it quite amusing,

I have always been stranded in my room,

Lying every second on my bed,

Every sunny day I look out the window,

I see children my age playing,

I also wanted to play with them,

But my mama wouldn’t let me out,

She said it was too dangerous,

Maybe it has something to do with my looks?

Lately I’ve been losing a lot of hair,

My skin is so pale and cold,

And my lips are so dry,

They’ll probably be scared of me anyway,

I’m just so envious of them,

Maybe that’s why I love it when it rains?

So I won’t get jealous seeing them play,

One day my mama suddenly bursts into tears,

She suddenly held me real tight,

“Everything will be alright” she said,

I wonder what’s wrong?

Lately, I’ve been sleeping a lot,

Always so tired, can’t even speak much,

I don’t know what’s wrong,

Mama wouldn’t even tell me,

So I’ll just stare outside,

And wait for the rain I love,

"Nikki"

Listen to my story…

To the girl who impress people with her music...“Nikki”

I have been one of her greatest admirer…

Ever since the time I first heard her play…

Guitar was her best field…

About a few months ago I was bored as hell. High School life was already getting stale. Lately I was thinking of numerous ways to make the best out of it. I was after all a senior and only a few months remain of my High School endeavor.

It was one rainy afternoon when our class president decided to talk to us about something. I was not his biggest fan as I find him so damn boring. But this time around there was no harm in lending him an ear. So what the heck is this news that he wanted to share?

“The school festival is coming up, and there will be a musical performance from different classes throughout the school as an opening for it. Those of you who are interested to join or to watch may come this Saturday at 6pm. I really hope you support this program!”

So…a musical performance eh? I have been a music lover since I was a child. But though I was, I was never good with anything in relation to music. I can’t sing or play any musical instrument. But I’m really good at appreciating it. I do find music as more than just sounds; it’s something bigger than that.

I’ve decided to go to the performance that Saturday night. There were so many people who came, so crowded. Luckily, I was able to secure a good spot for the spectacle. I can clearly see the stage and heck even the performers. This was gonna be one hell of a night…

I can’t believe there were so many talented musicians in our school! The performances were all great, but there was one group that caught my attention. They were called “Paraholic” a group of second year musicians. But it was their guitarist that stood out, “Nikki” was her name.

After that night, I fell in love with that guitarist. Her skills were more than enough to define her beautiful. I was curious about her, wanted to know more about her. So ever since that night, I became somewhat of a stalker…following her gig every time she did one…

Days flew by and every performance she does, I was there. I’ve come to admire her even more every moment I see her. I wanted to talk to her, but couldn’t find the courage to do so. What should I do? Only a few months later and I’ll be off to college…

One day I’ve had it! I must stop hesitating, I must talk to her! I didn’t know why I think about her this much. But one thing I know is that she already means so much to me. So then, I’ve decided to finally approach her after their next gig.

Their performance was quite impressive as usual. But of course, she was the most impressive among them. Afterwards I finally got the chance to get up straight and personal with her. I don’t know what to say, but here goes…

Finally after much deliberation, I’ve done it! We talked about several topics and told her how much I admire her band, especially her. Funny thing is, afterwards she told me to come with them to a party. I’ll never ever forget that very moment…

We became friends and soon started going out. I can’t believe that the girl I once dreamed about is finally this close to me. It seems that my remaining High School days are not that stale after all. Our bonding dragged on for days, months…

One day I’ve decided to stop by at her house. I was yet again anxious to see her. But instead was disappointed with the news her mom told me. She was already gone…she left for someplace far away to pursue her dreams…

It wasn’t that easy to swallow this fact. I was sad for myself, yet happy for her. I’m just glad that finally she was reaching for what she has always dreamed of. I’ll miss her, but maybe it was for the best. Perhaps my only regret…not telling her what I really feel…

So wherever you may be, I just want you to know that…you’ll always be a significant part of me. You were my first love, the one that thought me to appreciate things even more. Someday I hope our paths would cross again…But for now, farewell “Nikki”….

-Alvin Reyes